Me or not?

I am not me. Not

a flawed June Cleaver, not

Mommy dearest neurotically raging

about a sink full of dishes and children clothed in

birthday suits and lunch menu items.


I am not me. I am a meta-human hero or

a neko cutie wielding Excalibur

Battling the gods among us for the right to choose our fate.

For a while, I am not me but

I am more me than I have ever been.

Until reality intrudes and I put the controller down.


Today, I am grateful for video games. Could you tell? :)



Perplexed Music: Elizabeth Barrett Browning

Today, I’m grateful for music. I’ve always loved music and singing especially. And thankfully, I have a pleasant enough voice that when I sing people listen instead of running from the room screaming. My husband says my singing (and my backside) are what convinced him to ask me out. I’m not sure how to feel about that lol. Flattered works, I think.

Music makes everything I do seem more exciting. I have theme songs for everything. My “walking around anywhere” theme song is Ebla by E.S Posthumus. If you haven’t heard it, I highly recommend listening to it and then either imagine going for a walk or actually do it. Epic.

The poem I am trying -and failing- to write now is also about music. So I decided to share a poem I enjoyed by Elizabeth Barrett Browning for today.  Because we need more poetry around here! And it isn’t Friday, but I’m going to tag this under favorite fridays anyway.

PERPLEXED MUSIC by Elizabeth Barrett Browning

EXPERIENCE, like a pale musician, holds
A dulcimer of patience in his hand,
Whence harmonies, we cannot understand,
Of God; will in his worlds, the strain unfolds
In sad-perplexed minors: deathly colds
Fall on us while we hear, and countermand
Our sanguine heart back from the fancyland
With nightingales in visionary wolds.
We murmur ‘ Where is any certain tune
Or measured music in such notes as these ? ‘
But angels, leaning from the golden seat,
Are not so minded their fine ear hath won
The issue of completed cadences,
And, smiling down the stars, they whisper–


Veterans day :o

In keeping with my Thankful NaBloPoMo theme for this year, I would be remiss if I didn’t thank the veterans on Veteran Day, don’t you think? Especially since my family is incredibly military oriented, lol. It’s easier to count the members of my family who have not served in one branch or another. Both myself and my spouse are veterans and I can absolutely say that our time in the military was life changing in so many ways. The biggest life alteration being the fact that we met and married at all. 

So a sincere thanks for the past and present veterans who have gone through all kinds of hell in the line of duty. A special thanks goes to current active duty and the families who love and support them. And thanks to the institution of the U.S military itself. It has its downsides definitely but because of them I have learned so many lessons that helped to strengthen me as a person regardless of what I’m trying to do.

I can go farther than I think I can. I can push harder than I think I can. And no matter where I am, I’m still a part of something larger than myself.

That means a lot to me.